illusiondream

For every dark nights, there's always a brighter day.

2011-05-05T00:03:00.003+08:00

This time of the month is always the time I hated most. Menses cramps is killing me, like really killing me! My stomach hurts so badly can~ Anyway I'm suppose to sleep but since I'm on the com shall update my blog. Work today was torturing! Having cramps and suddenly ot seems like there's lots of people today. But sales was not bad, so okay lah. Ended work and went to meet Dearest. Miss him so so much! Don't know what happen to his phone, kept calling just now after I bathe and couldn't get through :( Guess he must be sleeping already. Have to work again tomorrow, so tiring. Hope there's sales tomorrow. I'm super tired already, shall go and sleep! And I miss Dearest so so much now! Hehe. *Yawns...* Goodnight!

Sometimes the best things in life are right in front of you,you just have to look a little closer.

2011-04-28T21:56:00.003+08:00

Wedneday- my off day. Slept till near noon, woke up and texted dearest. Brought naughty weng weng to central for lunch at Macs and met cousin. After that went to shop around central. Bought quite a few things. I bought clothes and slipper for weng weng :) see, I sayang him so much right? Lol. The sun was killing us so badly, we went home after walking a few rounds. Nowadays don't know what's wrong with the weather, so damn hot! Came home and rested awhile. Watched some tv and went to Grandma house. Chatted with Grandma sitting at my Grandpa's favourite seat. Talking about the past, and how Grandpa suffered before he passed on. Suddenly I feel the house is so empty without Grandpa, and than I realized I haven't really gotten over it. Sat there for quite sometime and thought back lots of good ol' times. Missed him so much ;( After that came home, had dinner chatted with dearest and slept.

Thursday(Today)- Work was super boring, disappointed at first, but now feeling better already :) Thanks to dearest. He is super cute, more kan jiong and excited than me. Hahaha. Ended work early and met mummy at central. Bought my fav sushi for dinner :) And Koi! *Slurps YumYum :) Am so tired, feel like I always have not enough of sleep. Think I'm getting old, Hah. Alright I'm gonne put songs in my phone and call dearest already. Goodnight!

I love you, and you only. :)

I want to refresh my mind. delete all my problems, undo all my mistakes and save all the happy moments.

2011-04-20T14:38:00.007+08:00

Hi, here to post once in a blue moon. I'm super bored cos it's my off day today! ^.^

Super happy but at the meantime I miss my dear super lots :(

Just saw him ystd and today I'm missing him so much already ;(

I feel like a nanny totally.

Everytime when I'm free they will bring weng weng up,

and ask me to take care!

Now he is irritating me by making stupid sounds beside me.

Feel so sleepy and the weather is cool (Y)

Sigh~~~~~~

Life is so boring.

I thank God for a wonderful boyfriend,

who loves me so much and always guiding me,

telling me who are the bad people in my life.

I've learnt something from Dear and fridge,

“不是每个对你好的人，就是你的朋友。”
I'm lucky to have my beloved and dearest boyfriend by my side :)

Sigh, miss him so so so so much.

Gonna go take care of the noisy weng weng!

Keep blackshot! Argh,

Bye!

I love you,

and I want us to stay happy and loving like these,

forever, and ever.

I want a night full of magical dreams. A day without any worries. And a moment where everything is just perfect.

2011-03-30T17:03:00.005+08:00

My Love! ^.^

Baby and sweet! :)

Hi all, it's been a long long time since I post!

Many many things happened, and finally,

everything comes to a conclusion.

But there are still things in complication, don't wish to say much as well.

Heehee! :)

Anyway, I've been a real good girl recently.

I stayed at home almost the whole day,

and night time after Yinghui Baby end work than we'll study tgt :D

And weekends are times for my Dear and I. ^.^

I miss him super lots.

I wish one month can pass faster, so I can see him more often! ^.^

Anyway today is my cousin's birthday,

Happy Birthday to him!

I almost forgot, until Yinghui called and told me.

Wahaha.

My nails hurt suddenly, :(

gahhhhhh, going to play with my xiao huai dan cousin now!

Byeee~

I miss you,

Like every second I'll think of you.

I don't want you to leave me,

just like how you don't want me to leave you :)

I love you.

2011-03-19T12:18:00.001+08:00

Hi, haven't been blogging for a long long time.

Feeling so vexed these few days.

And I'm fcuking pek cek and moody now.

Idk why?

Thought I'd have a happy mood today?

Whatever fcuking bullshit,

I don't wanna fcuking care anymore.

Fuck my fucking life!

I just wanted you to know that I'll never forget the butterflies you gave me.

2011-02-21T20:59:00.004+08:00

Hi! Back to post.

I'm super uber bored.

Hasn't been going out often after grandpa's funeral.

I feel like a kampong kid suddenly.

LOL.

Seriously I miss my grandpa hell loads.

But Sometimes in the middle of the night I'll feel scared.

Sigh,

Everything is so different without you grandpa.

Everyone is learning to be strong.

I just hope time heals everything.

My nua-ing days are gonna be over soon.

Only can nua a few more days I'm gonna go apply to study.

before my brain turns rusty,

I think i should start doing somthing about it :)

And and and,

You made me laugh everytime you say something.

I will think of what you say and laugh to myself,

most of the time.

You never fail to make me laugh and you just understands me!

LOL okay i'm gonna utter rubbish again.

Tmr need to wake up early too.

Ciaos~

You and I both?:)

2011-02-09T05:15:00.002+08:00

At grandpa's wake now.

Stayed overnight.

Waiting for other batch of relatives come and take over.

it's such a cold night.

i miss grandpa dearly.

I somehow still can't accept the fact that he's gone.

I still remember every single thing that happened.

When I was young Grandpa and Grandma dotes on me alot.

Always siding me when I've done something wrong.

When my parents wanted to cane me,

either one of them would shield for me.

Always giving me money to buy sweets.

When I grow up I start to defy, I still rmb there was once,

I quarreled with my grandpa before i went in.

And I actually asked him to leave me alone.

When I came out,

I did everything I could to stay with him.

Buying him food that he wants to eat.

Everytime when he went to see Chinese physician,

He would give me extra money.

i still remember he told me to get married by 20 years old.

I will try my best.

Sigh,

I miss my grandpa alot alot );

It's time to grow up.

I guess I have to go through this sooner or later.

Yeye, Wo ai ni.

2011-02-07T11:48:00.005+08:00

Here to post a short post,
Than have to go for interview with my cousin later.
Yawns.. So tired!
I can't find my ez link card.
Wondering if I threw away when I spring clean my room? :/
This year CNY collect so little ang bao lah! :(
Sad max.
I wanna study but I don't know whick school to go.
Citycollege's 2years class is way too ex.
Sigh!~
Okay I needa go prepare already,
If not my cousin will nag nag nag at me! :/
Bye!

2011-01-30T09:02:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY BRO! xoxo Finally doing some posting.
Ystd was my bestie bro's birthday.
Didn't get to celebrate with him,
as usual, can't find him!
Than i suddenly remembered he say he is going genting.
Lol, bluff me one! Say want bring me go also never.
But i forgot to tell him i finish reporting le :/
Hais. Super miss him lah~
Waiting for him to bring me to Sarawak! Wheee~
Hopefully he can fork out time for me uh!

CNY is coming, phew!

Time flies. Many things change. Everything is not the same anymore.

Who can I blame? But myself.

I thought I can have a stable relationship. But it all turns out wrong.

I don't want to be with you, because I know I will be hurt in the end.

You can say it easily thay if you go in, ask me don't wait.

But have you thought of how I am going to go through this period my tough time?

How I wish I only know you later, Maybe after all your cases are closed,

than I will be secured that you will not leave me.

I think God likes to play prank on me. He always made me fall in love and than

something must happen to break my heart.

I love you, but but but... ... sigh, you can say i think too much or paranoid.

But that's me and my brain ): Sigh.

My grandpa says he wants me to get married by 20 years old -.-

I was thinking of that too actually! Haha!

But where to find a trustworthy guy? I think I'll marry my grandpa! Wahahahahha.

Okay I'm going to go prepare.

Gonna dye my hair today and so many things to do.

xoxo.

2011-01-14T14:07:00.003+08:00

Yawns~

I'm so tired despite sleeping for quite long.

Haha.

Will be over at hospital these few days.

Grandpa's really weak.

Praying hard that nothing will happen hopefully.

Thanks to my beloved Boyf who came down to acc me.

Wahahaha.

Will be heading down to hospital again later.

Sigh, so sad when I saw my aunties crying ystd.

They thought my Grandpa never woke up.

My cousin said I was emotion-less.

I really dk how to express myself.

Want to cry also can't.

Want to laugh like crazy like that,

Sigh!

I must be strong to go through all these.

Don't know why these few days got very bad headache.

Argh!

Headache go away please.

Sucks ttm!

Okay bye!

我爱你很多很多! :)

2011-01-13T01:50:00.002+08:00

Hello~
I'm here to post at this hour.
So damn stressed up. Grandpa is lying in the hospital,
So weak, starting to have a lill amnesia.
It breaks my heart to see him like that.
I'm really scared, scared of losing you grandpa.
I never forget the days he scolded me,
But I ignore him totally. Idk how much I love him,
until today. I just hope everything will be alright.
And...
Silly boy, I really love you. Please don't say such things again.
I'm a simple girl. I don't want anything.
Just a wedding ring and your eternal love.
That's what I really want from a guy who loves me truly.
Idk how I can make you understand, I really love you.
I just want you to love me.
Please don't think so much already.
Sigh...
I'm always saying so much at this hour if I update.
How I wish time could stop at the time,
When you hug me so tight.
And make me feel that you don't wanna let me go.
I love the way you say that I'm yours.
I love the way you protect me.
You made me feel safe.
I hope time could stop. So that you wouldn't need to be stress.
Idk what else I can say, besides...
I love you.

Goodnight peeps.

2011-01-10T13:08:00.005+08:00

Haha! I'm finally blogging! First post in 2011.

LOL.

So lazy to post.

Well well,

There's so big difference for me in 2011,

Well yes One thing.

Aiyo idk how to say.

Hmmmm.

I thought everything would go smoothly,

but end up still.

Sigh.

Anyway my dear baby is outside with his friends now.

I'm at home rotting.

I'm sooooo damn sleepy lah.

Everybody's at school.

I also want go school leh.

Haha.

I got so many things to say,

but i'm lazy to post.

Maybe later ba!

Okay I wanna go sleep.

Byeee!

I love the way when you kept saying "I Love You" randomly.

I love all the stupid promises you said :)

I will trust you, silly boy.

ILY! :)

2010-12-18T10:48:00.005+08:00

One&Only Sweetheart. :)
One&Only Baby :) Hehe.

Love! :)

YumYum! Sakura!

6I'05 :)

Hi!

Here to blog.

Hmm, what's there to say?

Going church later with Steffi.

Gahh bored.

My mother and sister in KL.

Me and my father so lonely at home.

HA!

My grandpa's health is failng badly.

The pain that you're going to lose someone,

is really painful.

Especially family members.

It's 10000000x more painful than r/s breakups.

Okay i got nothing to say already.

Bye!

Sometimes because I don't even know what I want,

What I'm thinking,

that's why i chose to be left alone.

Nobody understands me.

NOBODY.

2010-12-06T21:18:00.003+08:00

Boring day.

Didn't go work.

Was sooo tired and lazy and headache.

Than that OLD WOMEN angry.

Wtf. Shag ah. Wed confirm die.

Slept and slept today.

And Sweet came my house too.

Guess what we did?

We slept also. -.-

Wonder why today all feel so sleepy.

Sweet slept the longest.

Went to meet Timothy than head to dinner at Lor1.

After that homed.

My mood is super down.

Idk why.

Argh, stress.

Changlin and JasmineOhSweetheart,

they never fail to make me forget my troubles.

Changlin always knows what I'm thinking.

And he will always tell me things that made me touched.

And everytime when I'm quiet out of a sudden,

he will ask me :

"You ok not? Why so quiet?"

Jasmine always doing stupid things,

make me happy only. Lol.

So long didn't see Jasmine already,

Felt like I've neglected her. HA!

Sweetheart sweetheart,

RINDU!(L)

I'm feeling so scared right now,

about what will happen tomorrow.

I hoped I never had to go through this.

But it just can't get off my mind.

Because I don't want to love you.

Seriously I don't want to.

I hope by end of December,

I will forget you, totally.

But I promise you, the short memory will always stay,

in my heart. Forever.

Sometimes I'm really tired of the world outside.

Why did I even bother working?

Think of studying?

When nobody is there to encourage me?

Nobody knows when I am down,

Nobody knows when I'm sad.

I have to keep everything inside.

I hid my weakness,

because the society is cruel.

Nobody will really stand by you.

I get tired of life sometimes,

don't know what's the point of doing all these.

But I have my own life,

I live for myself, my grandparents.

Hopefully my parents too, in time to come.

Just hope that 2011 will be a better year.
Sigh,

I am going crazy man!

BYEBYE!

2010-11-30T22:18:00.002+08:00

Hi all.

Surprisingly I'm here to blog,again.

Haha.

Got the urge to blog suddenly.

Such a boring day today. Gosh~

Now everyday is bored to me.

Today as usual, worked half day.

Than went to report.

Afterthat headed home nua all the way.

Than brought my AhGong go see doctor.

Always go there wait and wait.

Don't know what's so good about the doctor.

So many people go see-.- LOL.

Daddy brought me go buy my favourite Beancurd!(L)

Yumyum!

Reached home showered and nua-ing now.

Gotta go sleep soon!

I realized no matter how early i sleep everyday,

I can't seem to get up on time to prepare for work every morning.

I must really sleep for 12hours or more someday!

HAHA.

Wanted to upload some old photos but blogger is giving me problems,

AGAIN-.-

Sian, okokay.

i'm going to go and finish my beancurd and wait for my hair to dry,

and SLEEP!

BAGUS! FAT!-.-

Goodnight! It's a cooling night!

天黑了以后，我学会冷漠。

天黑了以后，我会选择一个人过。

不用你担心我。

2010-11-29T18:20:00.002+08:00

Hi all.

I'm here to post to keep my blog alive.

So tiring today, as usual,

monday blues.

Worked half-day and actually going for counselling de.

But end up didn't go because of the heavy rain.

Reached home around 2plus and watched 2episodes of

"My Lucky Star".

The girl is so lucky man.

So bored~

Rotting at home.

Sigh tomorrow will be another day.

And one more week,

to see you again.

I'm confused and messed up.

idk why.

BYE.

我已经渐渐习惯，

看见那么多虚情假意的人，真令我痛心。

要是你在我的身边就好了。

Keep all those actings to yourself.

TYVM BITCH.

2010-11-25T16:15:00.009+08:00

Hi. I'm so bored, so decided to post.

It's raining so heavily now. Whooo~

Currently watching My lucky Star.

Hahahahahaha.

Boring, load so slow la.

And there's thunder and lighting.

So loud and scary leh!

Bored~

Hope it keeps raining :/

The thunder is soooooooo loud la omg.

Okokay byebye!

Imissyou, very very much.

I hope you do too.

I really hope nothing will happen to you,

I hope the angels sent my prayers to God.

Because I don't want to see you suffer.

I know you're suffering.

So am I.

I wished I was the one suffering instead of you.

Sigh,

How can i move on, when i love you so much.

I'll do whatever it takes,

to turn this thing around for the good...

2010-11-07T19:48:00.008+08:00

Heyo :D

Here to keep my blog alive.

Not in the mood recently because of some stuffs.

Idk how to express myself too.

Well, let it be.

I wished you could just come out right now,

sending me bible verses that boost my day.

Nah, not going crap anymore.

A BORING weekend.

Next sat next sat,

SHOPPING with YINGHUI!!! lovelove!

Weeees~

Bye!

*Some people is just sooooooooooooooo fcuked up!!!

2010-10-30T16:29:00.005+08:00

Hi all, so sorry, my blog is super DEAD.

Anw just quick update,

this month is SWEET'S birthday!

Went to celebrate last Saturday.

Was kinda fun, hope SWEET enjoy herself! <3

Was working throughout the week,

but ws on 2days mc cos of vomiting and direhha.

So sickening and sick!~

Today no programmes.

Maybe later abit going meet Steffi.

And CL is coming my house later! <3>

What was that symbol for too-.-

Gaahhh. Boring weekend.

Guess i gotta go catch some shows.

Update soon!

Payday payday payday faster faster faster! <3

2010-10-24T22:39:00.002+08:00

My blog is goddamm dead.
Sorry for not posting.
I wanna change blogskin.
But i got no time!
And so tired and lazy to use com after work everyday.
Can't find new skin.
SIAN.
Will try to get my blog done up soon.

*Don't ever trust anyone because you'll never know what they will say or do behind your back.
EVERYONE and ANYONE can be a betrayer and backstabber.

Goodnight!

2010-10-16T15:57:00.003+08:00

Hi all,
My blog is seriously down. No time and lazy to update also.
Hmmm currently rotting at home, nothing to do also.
Don't know should go movies with Bingfu not. Haha.
Heard many things from sweetheart. Happy than XiaoQian is out.
But sad to hear things about Sayang.
Precious send us regards! I miss her sooo badly.
Wonder why is Sayang doing all these.
Does it benefits her? Will she feel more happy by doing this?
Why can't she behave herself? Why can't she just live the way she is?
Instead of doing all these.
Sayang, you really hurt me and you daughter. Alot and deeply.
Hope you knows what you are doing and please behave.
So many things to tell you but no chance.
Takecare and behave.
Love you always.
Sigh.

2010-09-29T19:48:00.002+08:00

Hi.

I'm posting today because i'm bored.

Lol.

So tired today. Went to work. WOw was like so super uber hell la.

I saw that old women i was sian 1/2 already.

Abit no mood to work le lo.

Than all the kids today are super roudy la-.-

All run here and there.

Lucky i have no heart attack.

If not i sure die.

End work and came home nua.

Just had my dinner.

A boring Wednesday night~

Tmr working again. Hais!!!! :(

2010-09-21T20:54:00.002+08:00

Hi all!

I'm so tired today.

Worked half day amd went for reporting.

Than came home rot all the way.

Sian ttm.

Lucky cousins came up to slack tgt.

Thinking alot today.

Woah, brainstorming day.

Lol.

Seriously i miss Sayang and Girlfriend alot.

And heard that XiaoQian coming out soon.

But for some reasons maybe extend a few weeks?

Hope everyone is behaving inside.

Please no banging of doors and walls k,

and NO PSL please.

Esp Sayang and Girlfriend.

Hope everything is going fine.

And sweetheart, please behave okay.

Hope you will be fine too.

Promise me nothing will happen okay?

Steffi ; i miss you alot.

I miss the times we were drunk tgt,

play together, squeeze on your bed tgt.

And all the nonsense shit.

I hope you feel the same way too.

Because i just missed those times.

Sometimes i keep thinking back, if that day we didn't go garden,

maybe everything now will be different?

Sigh, Love you alot.

Sweet~

You're always so understanding and loving.

Always trying your best to help out in everybody's life.

But you failed to look at yourself sometimes.

You busy helping others and you totally forgot about yourself,

that's what i love you for!

hope we will continue to stay like this hao ma?

I love you!

Yinghui,

i think you're still angry with me.

But all i can say is i still love you and never forget the wonderful

times together.

These people are so important to me.

What more can i ask from God? (:

I always wanted to tell this special someone,

that he is always the reason that i'm not moving on stabily.

I keep asking myself why can't i forget you.

Every lill things you do are still in my head.

One year plus already.

It's still the same.

Sometimes i miss you so much that i really feel like calling you.

But we know very well things won't be the same like last time.

No more late night talks.

No more lectures from you.

Nobody will keep asking me to be good and behave and study.

No sudden surprise sweet phone calls.

No more silly smiles,

No more protective hugs.

Everytime i wanted to let go, i will pull it back.

It's just so hard to forget you.

You'll never understand what i'm going through.

Nobody will.

This is the last time i will cry for you.

Because now i think ;

you're just a worthless jerk.

And even if i cry a thousand tears tonight,

Would you come back to me?

And even if i walked on the water,

would you come out to sea?

Now i can't spend my life standing by,

Cause even when i miss you,

You're still not missing me.

Goodnight people! I'm going to utter rubbish again alr.

BYE.

2010-09-20T20:31:00.013+08:00

Hello Earthlings,
I'm here to post again.
Shall not say much but just my weekends.
Sat went to Cl's workplace.
Hmmm, still thinking if i should get the job or not.
Than went to church!(Y)
Missed so many people.
After that went to Changi Airport's Fish&Co to celebrate Ys birthday!
So cool man hoho!
Than chit chatted and played than Titus and me went to walk around to have
a heart to heart talk :D
I told him alot of things and blah blah~
Backed home and was so tired.
Sunday went to fetch my ahgong home from hospital!
Happy happy!(Y)
I didn't know my ah gong was so cute until ystd!
And met up Sweeeeeet!~
Slacked and night time went for dinner tgt with my parents! ((;
Had been coughing since last friday.
And very bad sore throat since ystd.
God please heal me!
I need to work and earn money!
Haissssssss.
Chatted with Sweetheart just now,
I missed my Sayang really alot alot!
I wonder if she misses me );
Hope she's behaving herself inside! );
I miss precious,girlfriend,affai,buddy......
Hope all of them are doing well.
Sigh~~~~~
Tomorrow reporting again.
Sian ttm! );

if only i could love you,i would.

2010-09-12T21:44:00.002+08:00

Hey Yo!

Suprisingly i'm blogging!

because I'm uber bored at home la.

Went to visit my ah gong just now at TTSH.

He looks very xinku leh ;(

I feel so heartbroken sia.

Hais. I scared anything bad will happen.

Stress sia.

Tmr work again. 7.30am leh.

Yawns. So tiring man.

I hope tmr will be a fine day.

With no more burdens, no more stress.

Look at the photo above ^.^

A few months back!

Everybody was so bond ((;

Read Sweet's blog just now.

I feel very touched by her words in Sistership.

At first when i come out,

i thought our sistership will be lost,

thought we would turn back to like normal friends.

But when i saw Sweet flood my wall in fb during my bday,

occasionally spam me in my blog and fb that she misses me.

And Baobei and Yinghui.

They showed Love so much.

I'm sorry for what happened past few weeks back,

always didnt meet and contact you all.

I just keep thinking about work and go home sleep all these.

Saturday also go other place and never meet you all.

I promise i will try to meet you all more often.

Now i put Family first in my heart.

Cos i want my parents to gain more trust on me once again.

I won't forget you guys, nor will i neglect you all.

Text me as and when you like.

Promise me, even if i don't text you all,

don't leave me out of your hearts :D

ILoveYou all ttm! (L)

Goodnight!

To Sweetheart:

I hope you understand how i feel.

I never forget you as well,

You meant alot to me also.

But look at us now,

are we like how we used to be?

Even blind can see,

we're drifting apart.

Sigh~

2010-09-11T19:33:00.012+08:00

Hi peeps!~

So long dind't post pictures already.

I'm free now so yeah!

Went to do my hair today. Soft rebond.

Not bad huh. haha. But it cost a bomb :((

I better start saving now before i declare bankrupt.

HAHA!

So bored, didn't go church today cos couln't make it on time.

Rotted at home from 5plus until now.

Meeting Kelvin Ker and cousins for dinner tgt later! (Y)

Ohya! And old women is on leave for one week plus! (L)

Can work without stress already!

Happy happy!~ :D

Alright shall go get ready soon!

Blog later if i'm free! ((;

I didn't know my words still mean so much to you,

that you will even shed tears.

I thought you wouldn't care.

Always when you wrote something about me,

be it in fb or blog. I would tear silently because you were sweet!

But now everytime i was waiting for your msg, your call.

You didn't came.

Every time i msg you halfway, you no reply-.-

Like that time when i'm very stress when i quarelled with Him.

Msg halfway you never reply.

How are you going to be there for me whernever i need you?

You say you wanna work with me but you end up never confirm with me.

Than everytime see you so happy leading your own life,

I think i'm just thinking too much.

To think that we could really be that good.

Don't say meet, i never asked to meet you desperately.

I just want to chat with you like how we were.

You never even contact me until.

Never reply my msg halfway always.

I just hope we could be like how we were,

a few months back.

Sigh.

2010-09-08T21:06:00.002+08:00

Sorry for not posting for so long. Too lazy already. Bored of blogger already.
Nowadays always work and got no time.
I'm so tired lah. Always work full day. Thank God that the old women
is on leave for one week plus. Than can relax work liao. Best lah ((;
Okay I'm sleepy already. Byebye.

Girlfriend and Sayang, rindu~ ));

2010-08-29T02:15:00.003+08:00

I'm worried for huina darling. Hope the baby comes out safely. Hais. She must be suffering alot of pain now. Please be strong darling!! God I pray that you'll be there to watch over this birth of this lovely child. I pray that you'll protect both mother and child and let the baby come out smoothly and your mighty hand is upon the mother that she will have the strength to hang on. It's a day to rejoice and praise for a new born child's arrival to this world. May this baby, god daughter of mine :) hehe! can grow up healtily and be a great women of God. Amen!
Tmr going to visit Huina darling.
Hope she is fine. It breaks my heart to hear from Joanne that she's in great pain.

Love is bullshit.

2010-08-27T22:17:00.002+08:00

Now watching channelu's lawyer show. Not a good night today. Lol. Went central just now with cousin. Bought a new high heels. Hope I won't fall if I wear. Tmr need go back to the childcare. Going to be end of the year le. So many things to do. Hais. Money money money. You're my honey honey honey. Lols. Night.

2010-08-27T14:02:00.002+08:00

I'm working now and it's so bored. I feel like sleeping with them now. Sigh. I feel so stress. Hmmm should I delete my blog?

Sometimes when you're lonely, you'll feel better. Maybe it's better this way.
All the best for those taking olevels prelims. :)

Do I still love you?

2010-08-21T14:29:00.004+08:00

I see so many webs on my blog.
So busy working till i don't even have time to use com.
Even if i have i alr have no energy to use alr. Lol.
The kids are driving me crazy day by day.
But......
they are still so cute :)
I missed baobei Steffi :(
Hope she can come out next week ba.
Sigh, only work revolves ard me now.
How? I'm going to turn into a workaholic soon.
Going to meet up with Besties to church later.
Hope no last min cock up.
Goodbye!

2010-08-04T20:26:00.008+08:00

Fav student.

Baobei :)

Mr dutch.

out with cousin :)

Sweet!~

Baby!~

Baobei!~

Hihi all.

Finally i'm doing some posting.

Finding time to.

Nowadays so busy working.

I enjoyed my work so much with those adorable kids.

But i get soso tired. 0.0

Went out with sisters that day.

Luckily Jasmine is fine. :)

And went out with cousin.

After so long its good to spend some time with them:D

Tmr will be meetig sweet to get things :D

Hopefully i will not be asked to stay.

I'll confirm screw the principal.

She's so bossy sometimes.

Alright i'm going to watch channel8's new show.

Goodnight! :)

2010-07-31T00:48:00.002+08:00

Back from work,
still the same sentence,
super tired!
Was feeling very shag these few days.
But luckily my childcare kids light up my day :D
I'm so lazy to post pictures.
Be it facebook or blog.
Cos it just gets so tiring.
These few days alot of things has been running through my mind.
We had no love.
And no feelings.
but why are you always popping out?
You made me live in fear everyday.
You still had the cheek to text me sometimes.
Idk what you are thinking.
But i'm definetly not the girl that you think i am.
So i'm just praying hard my fear will not come true.
Only Huina Darling knows my feeling.
I just wanna be alone now.
Goodnight.

2010-07-25T00:27:00.002+08:00

Hi all.
I'm here to update to keep flies away.
Have been so busy nowadys.
Going to bo more busy next week onwards.
Cos i'll be working 2jobs.
Sigh.
Most prob quitting my waitress job soon,
but i wanna work for the f1 event leh.
Sigh.
Stress uh.
Okay blogger is giving me problems to post pictures.
Shall post again.
I just ended work.
Now my legs are freaking tired.
Goodnight.

2010-07-16T00:27:00.008+08:00

Hi all :) So long didn't post alr. Was busy working and going out.

Finally met up with my Sweetheart<3 !!!!

Haha, so long didn't see her already! Miss her ttm la.

Went walk walk around Hougang with her on 13/07/10 :)

Took alot photos and talked alot (:

Wed was working, so bored.

Today went reporting, damm it. Got ut. Sian.

Missed counselling, cos oversleep.

Met Sweet :) Missed her too.

After that walked to bus stop with Sweet :)

Tmr working again. Saturday meeting Sweetheart again :)

Lovelovelove.

Maybe going church. Haha. Worship God ma.

I quitting smoking :) bit by bit!

I'm gonna change myself, to a better person.

You've changed to a person that i don't know.

You're leading a life happily w/o.

You're not the one that i knew anymore.

You treat me differently like last time already.

maybe its best to keep it that way.

You making me confused.

Do i still love you? Sigh.

I'm on the phone with that stupid HETESHSINGH!

He is very thick skin and stupid :)

Okay goodnight.

Work sucks.

2010-07-08T01:05:00.002+08:00

Hihihi.
Finally i'm able to post,
thanks to my urge of using the computer. :)
Well, just ended work not long ago.
So damm fcuking tiring.
Wth -.-
Now i know earn money really very tough.
Sigh!~ But well. Today's work was better than last sat's one.
Because today one not so much pressure.
Made alot friends also. But... well, no comments.
Alright now i think i'm going to facebook and go and sleep.
Was thinking should i take mc tmr.
I'll be working 11hours tmr!!!!!!!!!!!!
God save me!!!!!! :((

2010-07-01T23:22:00.005+08:00

Hihihi~
Sorry for not poasting for so long. Busy with stuffs and and and.
I'm starting work alr.
Fcuk.
This sat.
I really don't feel like working laaxxxxzzzzz.
Dammm it.
How i wish money can drop from sky.
Hais!
Money money money!!!! $$$$$
Idw work lahh :((
I want go find rich husband alr!
And get married tmr,
so sat i no need work!!!
Stress! HAH!
Met my sweet these few days,
lots of things happen, but i hope it will all come to an end.
A happy ending i mean.
I love die my sweet la! :))
And Charmaine is coming over to my hse this sat :) heheh!
Do support her blogshop!!!!! :D
http://www.puppet-closet.blogspot.com/ :D
Goodnight!~

2010-06-22T20:56:00.001+08:00

Hi, just a short post for today. I'm so tired, sigh.

Tmr to Fri there's programme from the stupid counsellor,

tmr there's job interview,

thursday reporting.

Blah blah blah.

Lots of activities.

Well... I have to get use of life with alot of things and job again i guess.

Sigh~

Okay shall post tmr.

Bye!

Sweet!~ Cheerup! Aini lahhh!

2010-06-19T20:50:00.002+08:00

Short post for today.

I'm so tired and nervous.

Sigh.

Tmr going for my art class after so long.

Really don't feel like going. Scared laaaa~ :(

Hais.

Met up with Baobei and Sweet today :)

Miss them so so much.

Hahahaha!

Went walk walk ard tpy central than headed to slack.

After awhile came home.

Ariel's here.

Everyone's so noisy at my house.

Hope ppl will complain so they can shutup :x

argh. annoyed.

Sigh!

The world is changing! :(

2010-06-18T23:54:00.004+08:00

Yo!~
Finally today is friday,
the week is ending. Hahahaha.
Went to meet Yinghui Baby ystd. Hehehe!
Miss her alot lahxz. Hehehe! I miss Sweet! and Baobei! too :)
Hope Baobei tmr come out than can see her :)
Today i stayed at home the whole day.
Packed my room, helped my mother to do housework ;
while she can go orchard shopping with my sister.
Haha! Well, I'm good!~ Hehehehxz.
Than my Mummy and Sister taught me how to bake cookies.
Cool man!~ I baked some for Ariel's birthday.
Ariel is my cousin, and she's 2years old this year i think.
Haha. And my aunty and uncle will be bringing her over to our house tmr :D
Than i'm gonna let her eat the cookies i baked!~
Hope she won't get stomachache :x hehehehexz !
Than at night Hao come take his helmet from me.
Tmd he, laugh at my beautiful hair,
and my pimple face. He said :
"Aiyo! The hair like kanasai!
Walao! The face so cui.! "
And than he kept laughing.
ASSHOLE!~
Had a short talk and laughs downstairs and came home.
Bathe and now my mother keep asking me put mask.
Sigh, my face really very jialat.
All thanks to the sun!
Alright, i'm tired already.
Goodnight!~

I hope you will take good care of yourself. :(

2010-06-16T00:06:00.002+08:00

Today went reporting.
Michelle was cute, first time didn't scold me like hell.
Still can joke awhile. Funny hur.
Well, the boring reporting starts again.
After reporting went to meet SWEET! and JASMINE!
Finally, saw them after ages.
Happy dao.....~ Over the moon :)

After that met Zai and Zack and Bingbing for awhile.

Missed everyone so much!
After awhile headed home.
Mummy brought me to the facial shop.
Like no use laaaa. Damm it.
Forget it.
Meeting Qianqi tmr.
Wonder how will the scenario be.
Everything changes so fast.
Sigh, how i wish i was back in that cosy and warm arena again.
When there's not a need to stress over so much things.
Sigh,

imissmy sayang, sweetheart, botak and girlfriend.

I guess just let it be than. I'll have to get use to it.
Mood uber down.

2010-06-14T23:36:00.009+08:00

Hi all! :)

Its been 3days. I still feel so weird somehow. Sigh.

The more you guys treat me so good, the more guilt i felt.

But you guys treat me hot and cold.

I know now you all have the rights to control my freedom,

but please know that i still need space to breathe.

I need my friends as well.

I can't possibly glue to you all 24hours again, like how i use to,

when i'm a little kid.

Stress lah!~

Was with my family 24/7 these few days.

Eating more than last time, think i'm gaining weight.

My mum said i lost some weight, but i think i'm fat.

Sigh! :(

Tomorrow's starting reporting again.

From the beginning again.

Just hope everything will go on smoothly tmr.

Its been a long time.

Sigh!

Tomorrow meeting SWEET! Yeahh. Its like finally.

After so long!~ Heheheh.

And others.

Well, all i can say is, its been a long time!

I missed everyone and everything seriously.

God, please take all these misery away.

Idk how long i can take it, i just pray i can endure it.

I'm not sure if i;m ready for anything.

But i feel that i'm a small tiny pea among a bunch of vegetables.

Everything is just so weird.

I really need that peace.

Sigh.

Maybe it wasn't meant for us,

How do you keep a love strong and going?

2010-06-13T02:03:00.002+08:00

Hi folks.

Its been a long time since i last blogged.

Many knew what happened, well its the past.

Now i just hoped everything will be alright.

For those who don't know, don't ask.

Because its hard to say. Lol.

Anw, i'm glad that my sisters are fine.

All of them still living well.

But some still seems so far apart.

But i know one day, we will be together again.

I never forget the days together.

And i know you guys have not.

Lets hang on and move on in life together.

:) Many things happened, well.

All fated i guess. People change.

But thank God, my Sweet, Baobei and Baby hasn't.

Gonna be good these few days,

to make my parents trust me again.

Than i can have my phone.

Hope everything will be alright.

Idk why, i feel so empty inside me somehow.

I should be happy but i'm not.

Maybe i would be happier if i'm not here?

I feel so low inside, like everything's not as nice as before.

The world seems so scary to me suddenly.

Sigh. Ohmigod. I hate this feeling.

Look at the time, i can't sleep.

Its not like me.

This place seems so strange to me.

I can't recognise every corner like how i use to.

Maybe it takes time,

Maybe its gonna stay like this forever.

Idk, i just feel so different.

Sayang; takecare of yourself alright.

Imissyou alot. Please behave. I'll never forget your words and songs.

Girlfriend; behave alright.

Imissyour "Hanya ingin kau tahu"

I can't seem to leave it behind, why?

You; how are you? are you still waiting? sweet said you are.

but will it be the same like last time?

has anything changed?

sorry i need time to adapt myself.

i missed you.

Goodnight Sweetdreams, Sayang der, Rindu der.

You're always in my heart and mind.

I love you so much.

Kisses.